Saying Goodbye

I have never been a fan of goodbyes. Whether its a family member or friend leaving, people dying or me leaving a situation in which I finally got "comfortable" with, I just don't like goodbyes. I know some people don't put that much pressure on goodbyes, but I know I do. They mean so much to me. The first thing I think of is "What if I never see that person or place again?" Now I know you are probably thinking that it's a pretty negative way to think, but I don't see it that way. I think about it like this. I have had so many good times with that person or in that place that I want to keep those memories alive by being around that person or place just a little while longer. I also have to admit that for a girl who just picked up 6 months ago and moved to Italy I really don't like change. ;) Goodbyes are a very big change.

As I left Florence today (and for the last couple of days actually), I have been going over in my mind, if in fact, I will ever get back to Italy. The answer to my question is, I don't know. However, if the last 6 months of my life are any indication to me what my future might hold, I know that in my heart someday I will be back.

I know that also I can say honestly that Italy wasn't my favorite country in Europe. If I had to choose a country that I have been to that once leaving I said, "I have to come back here!", I would put a few on my list. Ireland of course, as well as Scotland and Switzerland. There was something about each of these countries that caught my attention the first moment I saw them and I just knew that they were places I wanted to share with someone else one day.

I enjoyed Italy though. I had so many experiences here, good and bad and it's because of those experiences that I will never forget my time here. I do believe that I achieved all of my goals that I had set for myself before I left 6 months ago. I also believe that I am coming back to Canada tomorrow with a better understanding of who I am and what I want to achieve in my life. It might sound a little hokey and I can't guarantee that I won't have moments where I loose my way, but I think I will leave Europe tomorrow proudly. I will miss so many things here, but I look forward to my future and see very good things in it.

With that, I guess I will say goodbye to Italy. I will keep blogging though, maybe not as ofter. 112 posts in 172 days... not bad eh? ;)

See you tomorrow Canada!

P.S. The temp today was a beautiful 12 degrees. I killed 2 mosquito's before I left the house this morning and I had a 3.50euro cup of gelato last night with 4 flavors in it. Mmmm